Let’s Talk about Orphan Black (Part 1)

Hello there!

I just recently watch the penultimate episode of Orphan Black, which is very very intense! My favorite show (and one of the best out there. I think it can go head to head with Game of Thrones itself), Orphan Black, is coming to an end this Saturday, August 12, and personally, I am not ready!

First of all, for those of you who don’t watch Orphan Black (like why are you not watching this brilliant and amazing show?), Orphan Black is about clones.

Sarah is a street-wise woman with a troubled past as an English orphan who bounced around foster homes before being taken in by Mrs. S, who uprooted her and her foster brother, Felix, to North America. She has made bad decisions in her life but always strives to do right by daughter Kira. When Sarah witnesses the suicide of a woman, Beth (who looks like her) she decides to steal Beth’s identity — boyfriend and money included — in an attempt to begin a new life for herself and Kira, with whom Sarah hopes to reunite. But assuming Beth’s life — Sarah eventually learns that Beth was her clone — doesn’t go as smoothly as she anticipates because Beth was a cop caught in the middle of a deadly conspiracy, making Sarah the new target. Sarah must fight to stay alive while trying to escape from the complex web.

She later met other clones such as Cosima, Helena, Alison and Rachel (the other main characters). I also just want to point out that Tatiana Maslany, a great great actress, plays all of this character with Kathryn Alexandre, her double. Isn’t that amazing?

Anyways, back to what I’m actually saying. I cannot stress out on how much I love this show. When I found out that season 5 will be the last season, I was thrashing my whole bedroom. “It can’t end! No!”, I said.

Before the show’s ending, I want to dedicate a whole post just me appreciating this masterpiece because it deserves a lot of appreciation and attention. If you also love this show, do an appreciation comment below and let’s talk because I need someone to talk to.

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Let me just fanboy about how brilliant and clever the concept for this show is! They’re using the concept of clones on their plot. Number 1, that is crazy. It’s amazing how they executed that on show by hiring such an amazing actress (Tatiana Maslany is queen) and doing an amazing job on the CGI! For each season, they make an amazing and interesting story arc. This season 5 story arc,  revealing the head of Neolution as a 100+ year old man who lived because of the crazy science (the big bad company of the whole show), is purely amazing!

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Now let’s move to the stars of the show, Tatiana Maslany and Kathryn Alexandre. Tatiana Maslany is a Canadian actress (Canada has a lot of good things, why?) know for her performance in Orphan Black. She won lot of awards including an Emmy award (but to be frank, she deserves a lot more!). Let me just tell you this, Tatiana Maslany is one of the best actresses out there! As I said, she plays lots of character. She portrays all of them so well that you don’t notice that it’s just one person playing all of them. You can see interviews of the cast and you’ll notice where are the actors of the clone and then you’ll just notice that the clones are played by one character. In some instances even, a clone will pretend to be another clone and Tatiana Maslany performs that kind of scenes so well. You actually know that that character is just pretending to be the other one because that’s how good she is!

Let us not forget Kathryn Alexandre. She’s a brillian actress you guys. She can totally copy what Tatiana can do. She learns everything that has to be done, how this character speaks, moves and even the little gestures! She’s amazing!

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Another star is Skylar Wexler. Some child stars are so annoying especially to me because I’m always annoyed about children and their little weird things (I probably have done those weird things, I know, but still! It’s annoying), but Skylar Wexler is very different! She’s an amazing child actress. She can act scene that are serious. Just this penultimate episode, she was crying over a funeral and you can feel the anguish her character, Kira, is feeling! She’s amazing and I hope in the future, she becomes successful.

I have said a lot of things already about how I love this show and I still want to talk about it but this post will be so long and I still have a lot to do. Anyways, just check out for part 2. I hope you enjoy this post.

Tell me, do you love Orphan Black? Why? Who are your favorite characters? How do you feel about Orphan Black ending this Saturday?

Bye!

It’s Been Hell!

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I am back from a tiresome and dull journey filled with homeworks, school projects, exams, drama and other annoyances in life. At last, I am back to the blogosphere where I can finally share what happened to me and how I braved my nuissances in life. (Okay, I’ll stop. It’s cheesy, I know)

– It’s just the second month of my school year and BOY OH BOY, I am done with all of these hectic schedules and schoolworks. Throughout the 2 whole months, I had many quizzes on every subject and homeworks but working on the ratio, I can say there were more quizzes than homeworks which I am not fine. I’d rather write all day and search for answers in  every question of a homework rather than memorize every tiny bit of information in my notes or books that might not appear in a quiz!

– What’s more annoying than quizzes and homeworks? Exams! Last week, we had our exams and I did not prepare well. My motivation and productivity was literally out of the place, like, there’s none present. But, I still think that I did great on my exams which is kinda true. I got my results this week and I did not fail but was I happy about the score? Definitely not! I could have done better of course but it’s just the first one. I’ll make it up next time.

– There’s more than that my friends! There are also PROJECTS! (cue dramatic background music) They are the biggest horrors of any student! Throughout the two months, we had a lot of projects (such as an interpretation of one of Igor Stravinsky’s composition or doing a speech choir about Helen of Troy) and right now, I am still doing projects such as a short film about flood awareness (I’m editing the whole thing), a report about the growth of the early Church and report about operating systems.

– Part of my self care is journaling. Just writing down on how my day went or highlight of the day or just my thoughts. I got into journaling the beginning of the year and abandoned it on March because March was such a busy month! And I thought that I can do it on summer. Nope, I did not. And right now, I regained my motivation to do it again. Well, bit by bit, I am getting there. The hassle is recording what happened on March and on the summer vacation because there were some highlight (like Prom, a trip to Baguio and so on!)

–  Last note is that I’m currently obsessed with Kinky Boots (it’s a musical). I got into it because I knew Brendon Urie would be starring as Charlie Price. But what made me really obsessed with it is the original cast and the songs. Stark Sands and Billy Porter are so amazing and the songs? Very freaking dope and catchy! Go listen to it! It’s on Spotify.

And that’s where I’ll be ending. I hope you enjoy that post and I hope I post a lot more (nervous laughter)! Anyways, I’ll see you soon! Bye!

New Founds: Musicals!

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Oh,  a new feature? Yes! New Founds is a feature where I share my new interests that I’m currently obsessed with! I’m going to launch this feature with a Musicals Edition!

I am not new to the world of musicals! During these past few months, the only songs I’ve been listening to are from musicals. My first musical obsession was Hamilton (still am and been obsessed since 2016). As I got obsessed with Hamilton, I am founding more and more musicals to be obsessed with and I’m gonna share two new obsessions!

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Based on the 1988 cult film of the same name, Heathers tells the story of Veronica Sawyer after she joined the Heathers, the famous clique in her school, and how her life change when she met JD, her boyfriend.

This musical is just so amazing! It features such great actors like Barrett Wilbert Weed (Veronica Sawyer) who has such an amazing voice, Ryan McCartan (JD), Jessica Keenan Wynn (Heather Chandler) who is just perfect for the role, Elle McLemore (Heather McNamara) and Alice Lee (Heather Duke) who is about to star on Wish Upon. Not only that, the musical has really really great songs such Dead Girl Walking, Candy Store and Freeze Your Brain. The musical takes the story of the film and improves it which the definitely did. I recommend you all to give this musical a listen. This is an amazing musical and even though there’s still an active fandom, I’m sad that it’s not as popular as other musicals.

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Loosely based on the 2000 film, Bring It On focuses on Campbell Davis and her cheerleading journey. It also focuses on the competitive world of cheerleading and rivalries.

I found this musical because Elle McLemore also showed in it. What I appreciate in this musical is the amazing songs and the choreography! Taylor Louderman, Jason Gotay, Adrienne Warren and Elle McLemore (of course) are such amazing actors. They sing their songs with such greatness while also doing choreography. Speaking of choreography, the dances were truly dazzling! The songs were so so so good (Alternative term was lit). There’s a recording of the songs in Spotify so please listen to it!

Well, I hope you enjoy this new feature in the blog. Also, sorry for not being active as I’ve been busy. It’s just the first month of my school year and it’s already hectic and add the revamp of The Artistics and you’ve got yourself a messy schedule! Anyways, I’ll see you soon! Bye!

Show and Tell // A Life of a Student-Blogger

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If you’re going to meet one of my classmates and ask him or her the question “What do you remember about Jerrod?”, I’m 100 percent sure that they’re going to answer “he’s a blogger”. My whole class knows that I’m a blogger and it was (emphasize on the ‘was’ because it’s not anymore) a major buzz around my circle of friends.

One thing they don’t know is that it’s so freaking hard to manage your blog and school. It’s definitely a challenge that I’m still trying to figure out especially for me since I also join extracurricular activities in school and I run an online magazine so in total, I manage 4 things: school, blog extracurricular, and online magazine (it would be 5 if you’ll add my personal life).

For this Show and Tell post, I’ll let you have a peek into my life as a student/blogger!

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As said before, it’s hard to manage both schools works and blog works and add some extracurricular activities from school and an online magazine. Basically, the formula for a very stressful life is blog plus school.

One very hard task to do is organizing and managing. It’s really hard to be so freaking organized so I’ll praise you right now if you can organize everything then add managing the tasks you just organized. It takes discipline for you to manage a lot of tasks in one day because there’s a lot of distractions. Your phone, your annoying little sister or brother or your cravings. Everything can be a distraction so it takes a lot of discipline for you to avoid these distractions.

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Now, whining aside. I know I’ve said it’s a very stressful life but IT’S FUN! I seriously think that there’s still fun in this student/blogger lifestyle. I love to learn new things and discover and just let my curiosity out and do that in school, and I love to write and just get my thoughts out there and blogging is a great medium for that.

Also, with this kind of lifestyle, I’m also stepping out of my comfort zone which I seriously think is a scary thing to do but I believe in the saying that great things never came from comfort zones. Also, with this, I’m also learning to be adventurous and to take risks.

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I know this is so cliché but it’s so true! If you’re not organized at all, everything would be such a huge mess!

I always keep a notebook where I always write all the assignments and projects I need to do or exams I need to study for. I also write some blog posts ideas. I also write some tasks I need to do about the online magazine. I write to-do lists each day and do at least the 3 most important things to do in the lists. Just to make sure, I also write the to-do lists on sticky notes (thank you to the person who invented sticky notes) or in my phone. This kind of stuffs really helps me to get organized and get through the day nicely!

So grab a notebook or a journal or a planner and write all the things you need to do and sort them out. Always write a To-Do list and make sure to them, prioritize and focus on what’s important, and you’re good to go!

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It takes tons and I mean TONS (!!!) of patience.As I said before, the student/blogger lifestyle is very stressful so a bucket of patience and another extra bucket would be needed.

As for me, I don’t have the enough patience and I tend to be always frustrated at things and stuff so what I always do sleep, eat and drink. I don’t really know why but sleeping, eating and drinking just helps me to calm my nerves down.

I hope you enjoy this post! I’ll see you soon! Bye!

 

Spectacular: Finding Audrey

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I’ve been wanting this book since last year so I put it on my Christmas wishlist. Guess what? I received this book on Christmas from my grandparents. I finished this book on one sitting (yes, book review delayed!) and it was fantastic!

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An anxiety disorder disrupts fourteen-year-old Audrey’s daily life. She has been making slow but steady progress with Dr. Sarah, but when Audrey meets Linus, her brother’s gaming teammate, she is energized. She connects with him. Audrey can talk through her fears with Linus in a way she’s never been able to do with anyone before. As their friendship deepens and her recovery gains momentum, a sweet romantic connection develops, one that helps not just Audrey but also her entire family. {Goodreads}

I finished this book on one sitting as I can’t stop reading it. The story was so immersive with Audrey’s narration. This book tackles anxiety in a light way without disrespecting the topic which I appreciate very much!

Audrey is such an engaging narrator. She’s the reason why I find this book so interesting, why I finished this book in a span of under 10 hours and basically why I love this book! Linus is also an amazing character, kind and compassionate while still being a realistic character.

Frank, on the other hand, is such a funny character. Frank is Audrey’s gaming obsessed brother. He’s one of the reason why this book is humurous. Another reason for this book to be funny is their Mom. Their mom is comical yet still likeable.

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But one thing I really appreciate about this book and probably the main reason why this book is lovable, light and humorous is the family dynamics. I can understand and relate to having a Mom who’s overprotective and having a brother who’s to obsessed with gaming.

As other book reviewers, I was also worried about the romance part of this book since this book also handles mental health issues. I don’t want this book to turn where love magically cure mental illness. Thank god that didn’t happen. Linus provides support for Audrey but it still takes a lot of effort for Audrey. The author acknowledge that Linus can’t solve Audrey’s problem.

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Speaking of romance, the dynamics between Audrey and Linus are realistic. The author acknowledges that  dating isn’t easy and this is evidently shown in the book as they both experienced up and downs in their relationship.

Finding Audrey is an awesome read providing you a fresh and humorous take on mental illness. I recommend everyone on reading this if you haven’t!

I hope you enjoyed this book review! Have you read Finding Audrey? What are your thoughts about the book?

Bye!


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Fifteen Things I Learned At Fifteen

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I’m officially fifteen and yes, if it’s not obvious enough, it’s my birthday! I’m kinda freaking out as I think being fifteen is a big deal. In commemoration of me being officially fifteen, here 15 things I learned in my fifteen years!

  1.  Stop trying to please everyone and accept that not everyone will like you as a person.
  2.  Don’t be afraid to say no.
  3.  Apply the lessons you learn from your mistake in real life.
  4.  Managing your time will make life easy.
  5.  It’s okay to help people but sometimes these people will always depend on you so be cautious.
  6.  Stand for what you believe in.
  7.  Taking a break and procrastination isn’t the same thing.
  8.  Take good care of things that you value.
  9.  There are people who loves you and adore you. Your are not hated and alone.
  10.  Life sucks but not all the time. It can be full of happiness too.
  11.  If you want to improve, practice!
  12.  Don’t be afraid to try something new.
  13.  The only thing who’s trying to stop you for doing amazing things are your doubts.
  14.  Things get better.
  15.  Friends are always there when you need them.

My fifteen years were so eventful and I thank every single people who made it that way! Anyways, I hope you enjoy this short post. I’ll see you soon, bye!


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My Top 5 TV Shows

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If you have been following my blog since the beginning or if you really know me, you know that I love watching (and binge-watching) TV series. If you don’t know, now you do! If I have a free time, the thing I would is watch a series.

I watch a lot of TV shows (and I mean a LOT! I’m not exaggerating) and I want to share you my top 5. It’s so hard to narrow it to only 5 because all of the series are really good but here we are Here are my top 5 TV shows!

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Game of Thrones is obviously my first choice. This show is the adaptation of George R.R Martin’s book series “Song of Ice and Fire” where families of monarchs and elites fight a deadly game (hence Game of Thrones) for control of the Seven Kingdoms of Westeros and sit on the Iron Throne.

This show is one of the best out there. It has a very compelling story! Come on, royalties fighting to control the Seven Kingdoms while having dragons and ice zombies threaten the whole kingdom, don’t tell me it’s very awesome. Not only that, this show has a powerful cast – Lena Heady (Cersei), Emilia Clarke (Daenerys) and Kit Harrington (Jon Snow) to name a few.

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Legion, based on the Marvel comics, tells the story of David who thought he has schizophrenia all along, until he mets Syd. He gets involved with Melanie Bird who shows him that he has powers.

Another great TV show! The story isn’t some typical superhero story where there’s a big bad and it depends on the hero to stop the villain. It provides a fresh take on the hero story. This show also portrays the psychological aspect (as David is a telepath and he has “another personality”, you’ll see what I mean if you watch the show!) in an amazing way using lighting and technical aspects to display the mood. The cast is amazing too -Dan Stevens as David, Aubrey Plaza as Lenny and Rachel Keller as Syd.

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Netflix’s Jessica Jones tells a darker and mysterious story of Jessica Jones, an ex-superhero turned private investigator, who suffers PTSD after a tragedy. She wants to do good but her priority is her apartment and getting through each rather than the safety of the world.

Just like Legion, this provides a fresh take on the hero story with a dark and mysterious story which I LOVE. This is something new for Marvel and it’s a risk but it pays. It’s also dark (I love stories that are dark) because it adds more flare to the story. Just like Legion, Jessica Jones also has a psychological aspect which they portray well.

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Another Netflix show, Daredevil shows the story of Matt Murdock, lawyer at day and vigilante by night. Blinded by a mysterious chemical in a childhood accident, the chemical gave him heightened senses which he use to fight crime in Hell’s Kitchen.

Even though this superhero TV show isn’t something like Legion, it’s still an amazing TV show. What I appreciate is that the story is immersive and the characters are very well developed which makes you feel connected to the character.

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97 years ago, a nuclear Armageddon destroyed civilization and the only survivors are on the Ark, 12 international spaceships unified together with 4000 people after three generations. As the Ark’s supplies dwindles, the leaders dropped 100 juvenile criminals on Earth. The 100 later finds out that people, called Grounders, have survived the nuclear Armageddon over the centuries.

I recently just finished its season 4 and it’s amazing. One thing I really like about The 100 is that every season has a very interesting story arc, from Mount Weather (season 2) to Praimfaya or a radiation wave (season 4), which keeps you engaged and immersed in the show. They also has  very well developed characters with different amazing internal conflicts.

So, that’s my Top 5 TV series. I hope you enjoyed this post and tell me, what’s your favorite TV shows and do you have any recommendations? See you soon, bye!

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Not Enough: Red Queen

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It’s been a long time since I’ve done a book review. My last book review was a review to The Sun Is Also A Star by Nicola Yoon (which I loved) which was published at January. That long huh?

Today, I’ll be reviewing Red Queen by Victoria Aveyard. My friend has been recommending this since last year and I actually want to read it. I heard a lot of good reviews about it and my friend has been crazy about it but the problem. When I finished this book, I was a bit disappointed. I thought it was pretty average.

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The Reds are commoners, ruled by a Silver elite in possession of god-like superpowers. And to Mare Barrow, a seventeen-year-old Red girl from the poverty-stricken Stilts, it seems like nothing will ever change.

That is, until she finds herself working in the Silver Palace. Here, surrounded by the people she hates the most, Mare discovers that, despite her red blood, she possesses a deadly power of her own. One that threatens to destroy the balance of power.

Fearful of Mare’s potential, the Silvers hide her in plain view, declaring her a long-lost Silver princess, now engaged to a Silver prince. Despite knowing that one misstep would mean her death, Mare works silently to help the Red Guard, a militant resistance group, and bring down the Silver regime.

But this is a world of betrayal and lies, and Mare has entered a dangerous dance – Reds against Silvers, prince against prince, and Mare against her own heart. {Goodreads}

As I said, I felt that this book was just “surface level”. The concept of the book is cliche and I didn’t like Mare Barrow, the main character, that much. The story was a slow paced but it surprised me in the end.

As said, I didn’t like Mare Barrow. Her opinion about how the Silvers always oppressed the Red and use them is repetitive which makes it so annoying! Also, her attitude got a bit irritating. I could understand why she feels these kind of things and emotions but it’s sometimes annoying. One thing I liked is that how the author evidently showed that Mare isn’t a perfect character- she’s flawed which makes her realistic.

Cal and Maven are characters that I liked. They both showed insights on how Silver lives. Their relationship with one another is pretty realistic with all the sibling rivalry. Kilorn was not a character I liked. Although,without him, the story wouldn’t even exist but Kilorn is like a Gale (Hunger Games) equivalent of this book which I don’t like.

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The concept of this story is cliche but I do like how the society is split into two – Reds and Silvers. It feels like a mix of X-Men plus Divergent plus Game of Thrones. I love those but if you combine them, you’ll get a cliche book but to be honest, it didn’t bother me at all.

The plot was inconsistent. At first it was interesting then it became slow paced, which I have problems with, then it got intense. The action parts at later end of the book was my favorite. I was on the edge of my sit.

It’s also great that we got to see how the world and society of this book is trying to portray. In the next book, I wish it could be expanded more.

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I have mix emotions with the writing. The writing was average but I can still understand what it’s trying to say and express but sometimes, I don’t get what’s happening especially the Queenstrial part.

There’s a lot of flaws about Red Queen but still, I liked it but I didn’t think it was great or a book to be on my Top 5 but do I recommend this? Of course! Will I reread it? Yes! I give this book 3.5 stars.

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The Blue Sky Tag

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Today, I’ll be doing the Blue Sky Tag. I was nominated by Sithara from Musings of A Mellow Mind. Thank you Sithara for nominating me and sorry for just doing it now since you tagged me last month! Anyways, check her blog! It’s amazing!

RULES:

  1. Thank the person who tagged you
  2. Answer their 11 questions
  3. Tag 11 people
  4. Give them 11 questions to answer

QUESTIONS:

  • How long has it been since you started blogging?

I started blogging on April 6, 2015 so I am blogging for 2 years now. It’s been a hard but very fun journey!

  • What is the best thing you like about blogging?

What I like about blogging is just I have the chance to write about things that I love or to write about my feelings and express it.

  • Do you prefer a sunrise or sunset?

Definitely the sunset. It’s just so cool!

  • The stars or the moon?

Stars! For me, stars are more interesting.

  • Would you rather read the book or watch the movie?

I’m guessing you’re asking if I would read the book or just watch the adaptation, amirite? If that’s it, I’ll read the book. I usually hate movies based from books

  • Are you an introvert or extrovert?

I’m a mix to be honest.  I think it’s called “ambivert”.

  • What is the best thing that has ever happened to you?

Maybe the best thing that has ever happened to me is when Tyler Oakley liked my tweet. I knew that Tyler was going to be a guest on the Ellen show and I tweeted my reaction and the next minute, I saw a notification that he liked it and I gasped!

  • Do you or would you ever read fan fiction?

I do but it’s only because someone told me to.

  • What is your favorite social networking site?

Twitter or Instagram. I can’t pick one.

  • Do you have siblings? If not, who would you prefer to have, a brother or a sister?

Yes. I have two siblings: an older sister and younger brother. So, I’m the middle #YayForTheMiddles

  • What is/was your favorite subject at school?

Obviously, Mathematics! Who doesn’t love math? I love geometry, calculus, quadratic equeations, linear equations, inequalities, slope, etc. Math is the greatest subj – of course not Math! I hate Math. My favorite is probably Science.

NOMINATIONS:

I couldn’t tag 11 bloggers since bloggers I know already did this but if I’m wrong and you still haven’t done this, you’re free to do this tag!

QUESTIONS:

  1. What is your favorite music up to this date?
  2. Who/what is your blogging inspiration?
  3. Favorite type of chocolate?
  4. You’re trapped in a desert and there’s a box in front of you. What thing would you like inside that box?
  5. Your dream job when you were a kid?
  6. If you can have a superpower, what power would you like?
  7. Star Wars or Star Trek?
  8. Marvel or DC?
  9. Favorite movies
  10. Did you ever steal something?
  11. If you would write a book, what is it about?

That’s all! I hope you enjoy reading this post. I would see you soon! Bye!

My Blogging Status (2)

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Once again, I had lacked as a blogger and I feel so guilty. I haven’t been posting and interacting with my fellow bloggers and I abandoned my blog.

Last time I made this kind of post, I promised that I will focus on my blog and get my priorities straight and now, that seems like a false promise. I had my reasons for being absent which was explained on this post but that’s not enough.

The problem is still me. I am still having problems with keeping my priorities straight and being productive. All I do now is stay in bed and be unproductive without realizing my responsibility with my blog and now, I’m kind of beating myself for it.

I feel like I’m always letting my readers down and, I make promises I can’t keep. Another thing is that I feel uninspired to do blogging anymore, that I have lost my interest on writing and publishing posts and earlier this day, I’ve thought of deleting this blog for good.

It seems like I have abuse my summer vacation to do nothing responsible and unproductive and writing this, I’m beating myself up for these terrible mistakes I did and I can’t help it. I made a promise in the past to focus on blogging and what did I do? The opposite of it!

The worse is I feel like I’m not going to improve. I’ve been a lousy blogger and I feel like I’m not going to develop into the responsible blogger I once was. I feel like I’m stuck on being irresponsible, lazy, uncreative, inefficient mess.

I’m afraid of making another promise to focus on my blog because I feel like I’m not going to fulfill it again but one thing is I’m going to try. I will try on improving myself. I will try to go back on track. It’s not going to be easy but I’ll try. I’m not going to make any promises but right now, after pouring my feeling and beating myself up, I feel determined.

And also next time, I will notify you all if I’m going on a break (I should definitely do that!) and I’m going to stop whining.

More post is coming your way! I hope you enjoyed this post even though I evidently beat myself up and whine all throughout the post. I’ll see you soon, bye!